It's been an intimidating and challenging first few weeks of school. Tests, not so nice results, exhaustion. Sometimes I wonder, is this all worth it? But God, I shall hang in there, I'm not throwing in the towel, I won't.

It's been tough, persecution, temptations, friendships, school, church. I never thought it'd been easy, but neither did I think it'd be that hard. Still I cling on to God's promise.

For he has shown me a humble boat, that has been anchored there for the longest time. Never moving because of the storms, always still, clinging to the seabed as like a lifeline as though the storm would swallow it up. But now it's time for the humble boat to lift it's anchor and move out to sea. To guide bigger vessels back to shore, to be that strength and support in the storm, because this small humble boat was a tugboat. It's purpose to ferry the big ships to shore and docking. Where they too can enjoy the safe anchoring that God shall provide.

I am that humble boat, the tugboat, it's time to move out, to the open seas when storms can smash into me, when sometimes it seems that the big vessels are too large or too heavy.

James 1:12
Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.

Amen to that!

Been 4 days since i turned 16. Like to say a big thanks to all who celebrated with me and gave me well wishes. Thanks for the numerous tau poks and awesome lan sessions to the home made food and the attempted cake-smash-on-face.

Friday, prayer group gave me a taupok which was a small peek of what was to come later that day and for the next day. Prayer went on as per normal. In the afternoon I was supposed to be surprised but Josie gave it all away over the phone. Well, was still kind of surprised cus of the homemade food. Though it din't taste anything perfect, the effort put into cooking all but just made up for it, awesome. Thanks Pi Wei and Joseph. Celebrated at Istana park, got tau poked, massive and crazy. Reuben just kept jumping, Justin too. Josie's weight alone almost took this life of mine. Went to play lan at e2Max. Played CSS, got pwned big time D: No fair la Reuben and Justin are like professionals. Anyway, we put up quite a fight considering our standards. Abel was like the camper with an AWP xD not to mention his Deagle. HAHAHA.

Saturday, church as usual, God's presence so unusual. Maybe God decided to bless me a little more that day, cus it was my burthday the previous day. What Bro. Andy preached about came about just as though God was speaking to me.

Sunday, went for lunch with my family, birthday lunch. Humble meal, but something I'd always treasure. Shopped a lil bit later with some fellas then went to Serene to study. After that went to see Xue Er off at the airport.

School has started, the monotonous bell rings, the canteen rush, the wild laughter and the air densely diluted in sensitive words. Yeah, it's never been the greatest of things being in an all boys' school. Much less being in one of the not so good classes in the last year of your life there. Homework and exams, it's all part and parcel of school life, ain't it?

It's been a war, a war that tests my everything. It's been stretching and lonesome at times, being in a class that kinda denounces Jesus. Being the only believer in class was never the easiest of tasks, sometimes I feel so out of place that I wish I could be anywhere else but there. Sometimes i brings great joy even sharing. But through it all, I know that I have Christ in me.

Anyway, school has been pretty nonchalant lately, nothing much going on. I've been having many relieve lessons HAH! Yeah that's just great, teachers on MCs and stuff... Started work already, did a compre for english, some math questions, chinese oral (did surprisingly well xP), chem workbook, physics notes.... and the list goes on.

Homework is starting to stream in slowly, did Geogpraphy worksheet on Industry, which i kinda enjoyed :/ I'm a humanities person after all. Oh well, I must say for the 1st homework of the year I had put in an amazing lot of effort into it. Tomorrow I'll be having my 1st history lesson. Just pray that Mrs Tan-Chinh isn't a boring teacher D: amazingly I've had quite a few amazing History teachers last year, each had their share to offer, Mr Kwok drilled the Treaty deep deep in my head, Mr Yap made me uber good at SEQs which i'm quite the thing to beat now :P, Mr (iforgothisname,ohno!) made me improve in SBQ woohoo! From then on I was the complete humanities person.

Well back to the point,I'm looking forward to this year and never turning back! 30 for Christ!

Amen!